Alright. FUCK THIS! I’m being

Alright. FUCK THIS! I’m being attacked on my own fucking website. This is ridiculous. Lets cut the bullshit.

1. Lauren calls me “Matty”, she likes to be the only one to do so.
2. Heather used the word “Matty” as a friendly gesture, not knowing of it’s personal “pet name” nature.
3. Lauren got jealous.
4. I, not wanting to have a jealous girlfriend, explained the situation, bluntly.
5. I was harsh yet very clear in my explanation.
6. Nick took offence and defended his girlfriends right to assemble letters together into words.

Congratulations! We all win a cookie for being the most sensitive bunch of assholes I’ve ever seen. My self included. I have talked to Lauren and she knows that Heather is a friend and not competition. I have also made it clear the nature of that particular “pet name.” The tone I said it in was harsh and for that I’m sorry. I am not however, sorry for saying any of this, any of what I said yesterday, or any of what I’ll say in the future. It was a “bad day” all around and although that is no excuse, it certainly didn’t help matters. But lets get something perfectly strait. This is a website that contains a personal yet public journal. If I’m not going to share private thoughts what’s the fucking point of having it. I do not and will not justify my posting of anything to anyone, ever. I have never compromised anything I’ve ever written for an English class, for a teacher or for a job and certainly have no intensions of doing it in a group of friends. I value my friends very highly and hope they understand the situation. A friendly gesture of kind words was taken in the wrong context and it’s been dealt with. Deal with it ’cause I’m not in the mood.

Ladies and gentleman. An error

Ladies and gentleman. An error has been made. The comments of yesterdays post contains the phrase “Matty”. This is a term of affection towards me and the exclusive rights and privilges to the use of this term are given exclusivly to Lauren. This is a sensitive subject and is not to be taken lightly. Lauren, fearing that she was losing me to some other girl responded in the natural manner anyone who expect. I love Lauren, and no other. She is the most wonderful and perfect girl I have ever known. I have every intention of making her my wife. No other girl could possibly compair in any catagory. I love her with all my heart. You all know that. This is very serious and I’m very concerned. I fear that somehow my relationship with Lauren was damaged in some way. If this should ever happen, I couldn’t bear to live. I never wish to lose the one love of my life. My hope is that people are more careful in the future in choosing their words. This is directed at one person specifically, but it applies to everyone. I’m going to call Lauren now, and hopefully try to repair some damage that one persons careless, though thoughtful comments have caused. I did appreciated the “cheer up” comments, but the rest was out of line. My appologies. I hope this matter is straitened out. Good day.

Well, I “borrowed” my parents

Well, I “borrowed” my parents modem for a few minutes to check my mail. Luckily it worked. I’m writing this from my computer rather than their’s. I had around 80 emails, all but 6 of them spam. How does that happen? I’d really like to know. I’m not on any mailing lists, message boards, anything. The only website that has my email address is Amazon.com and they say in their legal jargon that they don’t sell user information. So… where is all this coming from. Maybe I’ll ask Chip to set up a Spam filter for me… But, anyway, that’s not the point. The point is that I can check my email. Huzah! That doesn’t mean I’ll be able to check it every night, or even nearly every night, but when I’m able to disconnect their modem and set it up on mine, I’ll be able to get email. Man, I can’t wait to get back to GA… well, scratch that, I can’t wait till I get back to a nice connection. I don’t care where it is. Ok, now that I’m done checking MY email, I guess it’s time to do something for the day. I don’t know what, but something.

An odd and unfortunate thing

An odd and unfortunate thing has happened. Excite has declaired bankrupcy. I know what you’re thinking… “so what?” Lemme explain. Excite runs Excite@Home, naturally. Excite@Home provides service for dozens of major cable modem providers across the country. When Excite declaired bankrupcy, they had to shut down their service, thus shuting down cable modem providers and cable modem users across the country. I have a cable modem. At the apartment, we use Comcast@Home. Comcast has signed a deal to extend the service, but only for three months. Meaning, if it’s not already disconnected, in three months it will be. Hense, by March, I’ll have no internet service. My only hope is that another company buys Comcast and continues service. But since Comcast is still a major cable TV provider, I doubt that will happen. I may have no internet connection soon. This is not good. If my roommates are reading this, we’re going to need to find an alternative within the next few months. Start lookin’ boys, I know I have.